david gurtner
ぼくはくま - i am a bear
it came clear to me, when thinking about my newly acquired sleeping habits: my system is working hard to convince me, that it's time for hibernation.
first of all, i never was one to sleep normally: during my youth i had some real issues with falling asleep, meaning it was nay impossible to do so. lying awake for hours and hours, the hours becoming nights. getting up in the morning, without having slept, or with only having slept the last one or two hours before getting up again. even today it still happens that i spend whole nights awake, but it has become more seldom...
but now it seems i turned into a bear. these days i spend easily twelve hours a day sleeping, sometimes even more. a very interesting habit. even though my job actually lets me do so, it's become quite a bother. getting up at four in the afternoon, i can just watch the sun set, starting to miss daylight by now.
and still i can't force myself out of bed earlier, because i never really wake up enough to do so. and when i finally manage to get up, i feel tired, feel like going to bed again soon afterwards.
right now i'm awake and out of bed since nine hours, but already dead tired. might head to bed soon.
finally if you're wondering, why i wrote the title in japanese: there is actually a song by utada hikaru with this title...